"First" week...

So my "first" week was a big ol' FLOP! The day I planned to start my challenge was a terrible day at our shop and working out was the last thing from my mind. I was mentally exhausted. What should have been my second day was a half-assed first day. I didn't have hand weights, I didn't want to put on my sneakers or my heart rate monitor. I just wanted to start the DVD and see how bad Jillian was going to kick my butt! Writing the challenge in my blog did motivate me to at least start the DVD but then it all just went to crap the rest of the week. I started my period, so that was a motivation killer and work was just plain stressful and I never had a chance to run by the store and pick up some new hand weights. I would vow to do better this week but I know that won't happen because the shop will be crazy this week with the holiday. I will however promise to do better next week and get myself prepped to start Monday no hiccups! I will also try my hardest to at least get a walk or a run in this week, either by myself or with the girls. I will also try to keep on track with healthy food this week to the best of my ability.

Fingers crossed!

30 day challenge!

The numbers on the scale haven't changed in the last 2-3 months and I'm not happy. I have 20 pounds I want to lose. Every day is a struggle for me with a number of things. The shop, our house, our kids, myself, my relationship, etc, etc, etc. When it comes to my diet I have a good week, then I have a bad week. Time management and a very low budget are the number one killers of my diet, or shall I say healthy eating, diet sounds like a temporary solution and that's NOT what I'm going for. If it wasn't for Wawa's under 500 menu then my arteries would be clogged and my weight would be going up, the opposite of what I'm trying to do, from eating fast food on the go. I like my sweets but generally can avoid the craving if I have some healthy snacks on hand instead of sugary treats otherwise it's sugar city for me, especially if I had a bad day! I've dabbled in meal prepping and it is a saving grace but I need to commit to it more and have more money to do it. I miss running. I miss getting up at 5am like I did last year and having an hour to myself with my music blaring, up bright and early before anyone in the neighborhood or being the first one on the trails. I can't do that anymore, I'm too tired and it's not fair to ask my significant other to watch the baby at that time when he got home just a few hours earlier.  I was getting into hot yoga but again exhausted and having other things planned on the weekends with school being out now. But want to get back into some form of yoga. I'm depleted on all levels, maxed out, emotionally, physically, and mentally. I'm envious of anyone that has the time and help with theirs kids so that they can achieve their workout goals. I know eventually I will get there, but until then I need to make due with what I have. I can't have a set schedule of when I can run but I can have a schedule of when I can do a workout DVD, especially one that is only 30 minutes. While I would love the new T25, I'm not paying that ridiculous price! I will however find my Jillian Michaels DVD (which I did last night!) and dust it off and challenge myself to do it for one month!

I searched 30 day shred pictures last night on Google to help motivate me, I also have looked back at my progress pictures from last year for motivation as well. I am making a promise to myself and my family to provide better food with our crazy life in mind. It is doable, I see others doing it, not having the consistent help I need should challenge me, not beat me down. I need to not let it get to me, overcoming that will make me stronger. And to hold myself accountable I will post once a week my progress, I'll give an update on how I'm doing, measurements not pictures, sorry I'm not that brave (maybe at the end I will if the results are really good!). You can either congratulate me for good progress or motivate me if I am struggling (in a positive way of course!). And this challenge is two-fold. Not only will it keep me on track but it will also get me into posting more on the blog which I always want to do but just never seem to have the time. But by golly I'm going to make the time somehow now!

So today I am starting my 30 day challenge, wish me luck!